Pure love

I’m still trying to understand what happened last night.

Lucy, our little puppy, and I walked upstairs and went to bed. We both almost instantly fell asleep. A couple of hours later I woke up not feeling well at all.

Jason was still not in bed, he often times falls asleep on the couch for a couple hours before climbing the stairs.

I sat up coughing feeling like I was going to be sick, so I slowly made my way to the bathroom. This movement triggered something else … now I felt like I was going to pass out.

As soon as I opened the bathroom door, Lucy ran out and Jason appeared. I heard the concern in his voice as he instantly started to try and calm me down. As the feeling of blacking out washed over me, I quickly laid on the floor. This is when Jason’s presence took hold. While laying on the floor, Jason started rubbing my back reminding me to breathe. As I listened to his voice, the feeling of getting sick and passing out eventually subsided.

He eventually had me sit up, which later turned into standing, with his arms tenderly wrapped around me.

He guided me back to bed before taking Lucy outside to let her go to the bathroom. When he returned he held me for a little while as our breathing became one and I started to feel okay once again.

It brings tears to my eyes reliving last night. The love that poured out of him was truly special. He always knows just what to do to calm me down.

Honestly, I am beyond fortunate to have such a caring, loving man that knows me so well.

I’m still uncertain what brought on me not feeling well, but I’m happy to say I didn’t get sick or pass out.

It’s the little gestures that mean the absolute world to me.

Very fortunate

Last night as Jason and I laid in bed talking, many feelings completely overwhelmed me. I couldn’t help but smile as I snuggled a little closer.

I am incredibly fortunate to have this man in my life. I am reminded on a daily basis why he holds such a special place in my heart.

Yesterday was the first time in a few years that we spent a holiday away from my family. That’s when homesickness hits me the hardest, on the holidays, when I know everyone is gathering.

That’s when I pick up the phone and call mom, it gives me that sense of home and helps me carry on. I just hope she knows how much I truly treasure what we have. This woman is the best mother I could have ever hoped for, she is my best friend!

Jason understands, completely understands, how hard days like Thanksgiving can be for me. Because of him, we made it through that homesickness. We are starting our own traditions.

Our first Thanksgiving in Tennessee was good, the food was tasty and the company was good. Jason’s mom flew in from Wisconsin to spend the holiday with us.

As the day went on I learned a little more about Jason and his childhood. It began to show why I love this man so much, why I respect him, why he is my partner and best friend.

I truly have never loved anyone this much. That love only grows every single day. When I look at him I see my present and future, I see many, many years of happiness.

I am continuously touched by this man … touched in ways that leaves my heart happy.

The two of us laying under the covers talking before I finally fell asleep will be a memory that I will hold forever. It was my Thanksgiving moment. The depth of conversations, the raw emotions that we share with each other is something I am truly grateful for. It’s the foundation of this incredible relationship we started more than four years ago.

I love knowing we can talk about everything and everything. That the conversation will continue ….

I am grateful for having two incredible people in my life … Mom and Jason, my go to people!