I know better

I have found that going to the gym has unfortunately been placed on the back burner these past few weeks.  Although going a minimum of three days is still better than none at all, I would rather go five or six times a week. This is what I’m used to, this is what keeps the stress levels down.

When I worked out with my mom in Fort Myers, my day started off at the gym, yep bright and early at 6 a.m. It’s hard to find excuses of not going when you go first thing in the morning. There was no, “I’m too tired,” at the end of the work day.

Although I work from home and make my own schedule, I’m still struggling with putting my work down for a couple of hours to go to the gym. That struggle comes when I look at my white board and see the amount of articles that are due.

I, of course know better. I know that if I do not make time for myself, I become stressed, which has a domino affect on my writing.

I’ve been waking up and going straight to my desk to start working, which I have found turns into a day without going to the gym. I get caught up in writing, editing, interviews and waiting for call backs that my day gets away from me.

I know better, days like this is when I need the gym the most.

The worst part about this is I am a member of a 24-hour gym, so I could really go at any time. With that said, when I put in a full day in my office, my brain becomes so drained that it makes the rest of my body tired as well. It’s sad, but I would rather walk downstairs and unwind in front of the TV, instead of lacing up my running shoes and hitting the gym.

On Wednesday, I started working around 8:30 a.m. The light in my office was not turned off until 7:45 that night. It was a productive day to say the least. I turned in five articles (three to one publication and one each to the other publications I work for), as well as many hours worth of editing for sections I am responsible for doing. My stress level was pretty high that day as I worked towards meeting my deadlines.

I was beyond tired …

Jason of course helped with that stress. He would pop in every once in a while, sometimes bringing yummy treats to brighten my mood. I would also walk downstairs and sit on the couch with him for 5 or 10 minutes to pull myself together again.

My stress level tends to grow, as the need to walk away from my desk and take a break rises. That day, going to the gym would have been helpful, but I couldn’t tear myself away for the fear I wouldn’t meet my deadlines.

So, Thursday I had Jason make sure I was really awake when he said goodbye before heading to work. Although it was hard to get out of bed, leave my warm covers behind, I did it and left the house before 8 that morning. It felt fantastic to start my day off on the right foot, a morning at the gym. I love starting my day off with a run, some weight training and other cardio training.

My spirits tend to stay high when I have that physical exercise in my day.

The best part about all of this was when I arrived back home there was a message waiting on our phone from Jason. He was checking up on me to make sure I did wake up and go to the gym.

It’s always helpful when you get the encouragement you need to get back into your rhythm again.

So, today I continued that trend and started on the right note again. I was out the door a little before 8 this morning. I was on my way to the gym.

I ran 1.5 miles and did more than 6 miles on the bike before ending my workout. On my way home I stopped at the grocery store to replenish my smoothie supplies, as well as grab ingredients for dinner. Today my smoothie was a mix of frozen strawberries, mangos and pineapples with a fresh banana and kiwi with orange juice. It was absolutely delicious, a wonderful treat after a great workout.

I am determined to keep myself on track, yep that means go to the gym first thing in the morning before I sit down at my desk.

When I finally made it to my desk this morning, my stress level remained low as I kept in stride and turned in article after article to my editors. I was also able to connect with some sources to finish three more articles that are due this coming week, articles I was worried I would not be able to finish. So, when Jason leaves for work tomorrow, I will put in those few hours to finish those articles and turn them in, so I can start next week on a clean slate. This of course will happen after another trip to the gym.

Hopefully then on Sunday I can take a day off, the first since the last Sunday of January.

Exercise is an incredible outlet, one that I am so thankful I found all those years ago.

Endless doubles

Jason took on a second job this week, which I’m thankful for because every little bit helps, but I sure do miss him already.

Now he is working multiple doubles in a row, yep leaving early in the morning and coming home hours after the sun goes down.

Before we moved to Tennessee he worked two jobs, gone from early morning to late at night, so I know just how hard it is going to be with him working so much. The doubles went on for quite a few months while we were saving for the move, so a lot of times I was already asleep before he walked in the door at the end of the night.

IMG_0689With that said, it never gets any easier.

It just reminds me how much I truly love spending time with Jason. When he’s gone I miss him like crazy, which only makes me more excited when he walks through the door smiling, thankful for his day to finally be over.

Although my workload can become extremely intense at times, I have the benefit of working from home. So if I need a 10 or 15 minute break I walk downstairs and breath before going back to work. Before this week, a lot of times Jason was at home. Yep I was a little spoiled.  It’s nice when Jason is home because every once in a while he’ll pop into my office as well!

Today he came home between his shifts, a short visit, but one that I truly loved. It’s always a great surprise when he does that. Today when he walked through the door I was asleep on the couch, what better way to wake up from a nap? It was great seeing him!

He’s been calling me more throughout the day when he has a moment, which is beyond thoughtful. I love hearing his voice, much better than a text.

So, after he left today it gave me the motivation to get up and go to the gym. I’m so glad I did. I kicked off my workout with the elliptical, a cardio workout that has always been challenging for me. Today I did five miles and boy did I feel every single mile once I finished. After doing my two and a half minutes of cool down, I did some stretching. This has become one of my favorite parts of my workout. I started using exercise cables to stretch my legs and it has made a huge difference. My hamstrings are always really tight, so I’m trying to find ways to loosen them up. Yesterday I ran a mile and a half, stopped and stretched and ran another mile. I felt great after I was done.

After my stretching today, I worked out my legs, yep even did the dreaded squats before finishing off my workout with another run.

Well that motivation continued after I left the gym. I stopped at the grocery store and filled the cart with a few things I know Jason loves. One of those items was blueberry muffins. I waited to make them, so they would come out of the oven around the time he came home. So they would be hot out of the oven. Unfortunately he called just a few minutes after I took them out saying he was going to be much later.  I also bought a frozen pizza for him, one of his favorite dinners. I figure it’s the least I can do after he works all day long.

That’s why this all works, we are a team, always doing for one another to make life a little easier for each other.

Missing you

As an emotional person, these past few months have sent me through a loop.

Jason, who is my rock, my best friend, an incredible boyfriend and an all around amazing man, is working insane hours to set our move into motion. Although I have the upmost respect for him, admire what he is doing and am incredibly proud of what he is accomplishing, I miss him something fierce.

Routines are hard to break, especially when they remain the same for so long. I became spoiled – loved every minute of it – which is why these past months have been really hard. I miss having him at home; I miss those moments we shared every day, the conversations that were had about the day and others that stemmed from those initial words.

Although we communicate as much as possible throughout the day, text messages are not the same. Don’t get me wrong, I love hearing from him, but I would rather hear his voice in person than through reading his words on my phone.

I miss sharing the highlights of my day, the overwhelming feelings that overcome me as people share their kind words of the work I have done with the Eagle, as well as the gains we have made with our move in person.

Now with his work day beginning early and ending late, an hour or two is spent together at night – usually half asleep on my part – when we quickly catch up on each other’s day and our move before I head to bed and he unwinds for the night.

These past few months have shown me just how truly important this man is to me. How I truly love having him around to share everything with.

Friendships are important, especially that best friend you pour everything on – the emotions, the activities and happenings of the day, and most of all the reason you may need to make sense out of something.

I am fortunate to have found a best friend, who is also my boyfriend, who I hope to spend the rest of my life with.

I cannot wait to have Jason around more … but I know he is working for the greater good of our future – very near future – so we will be in good hands once we arrive in Kingsport.

Jason know that what you are doing is appreciated beyond belief . . . but know that your presence is missed at home.